To
My dearest
Life is an enigma. Do you believe? In our life time we come across so many different people. They come and pass by
influencing our life in some way or the other. Some of them we remember, some of them we don’t. Some of them make us
happy, some of them make us cry. Some of them just let life pass by.
But, there comes individuals who stay so close to our heart. Among them we find only one whom we want to live the entire
life with. As a manifestation of some divine linkage, we continuously tend to come close to that person. And suddenly we
realise that our heart beats only for that special individual. Sometimes we realise each other fast, sometimes we don’t.
Sometimes we laugh, sometimes we cry. But, the link continues to vibrate no matter whether we ignore it or not.
And for me that individual is you. Whenever we met, for whatever insignificant duration it may be, I came closer to you
day-by-day. Everyday. Whenever you came close, my heart started beating so fast. I could even sense your presence
without looking at you. It’s some strong attraction that rendered uncountable sleepless nights.
Remember the first time we met after we came to our senses? We didn’t even speak a word. I was beyond understanding
love or hate then. But, somewhere, somehow I felt attracted to you. There was that uncanny urge within me that existed to
meet you and talk to you. I didn’t know what happened that day, but I certainly came closer to you even though I tried to
shift my focus.
Life started moving on in its entirety, but it wasn’t same as before. I was changed for once. There was that strong urge to
work hard, excel in life and do something significant so that we can come closer again. And all these happened without
much of my knowledge. This sense to achieve something high drove me further. And as I mentioned, that magical “divine
link” caused us to meet once gain.
You looked as stunning as ever. That simple smile on your face made me fall for you all over again. Something was surely
happening between us. Believe me, I tried my best to shift my focus. But for the first time in life I couldn’t do that. My heart
started beating at twice the rate every time you talked. I was even fallen for that Bengali music that I heard for the first
time that day. The effect was so strong that I went ahead and bought that musical track. Every time I played it, you were
in front of me. I listened to the song a thousand times that day. Was that some kind of magic or anything else? Trust me, I
didn’t have zilch of an idea.
Did you feel the same way? I don’t know for that we didn’t even start talking. Isn’t that funny? How could so many things
just changed in spite of us being so unknown to each other? Do you have an answer? I certainly don’t.
So many changes can’t just happen like that. Right? How could you explain me smiling all throughout night (and night after
night) thinking just about you? How could you even explain me listening to the same track again and again? Who would
you attribute this strong new sense of achieving something in me to?
I know you don’t have an answer. You didn’t even know me completely. Did you feel the same way? As for me, it was
difficult to understand how could a link that existed between us vibrated only in one direction. It wasn’t fair. Right?
It might sound silly, but I was in love with you. My motivation to do something… anything, just revolved around you.
Every day I used to nurture a new hope to meet you somewhere on my way to tuition, social gathering, and literally any
place I visited.
If you still don’t believe, let me tell you something more. How could you explain us meeting for the third time? As a matter
of fact, there was no conceivable reason for me to be at that place which I am talking about. Do you remember?
I am sure, you do.
Do you remember when you asked me why didn’t I talk much? Though I avoided your question that day, let me clear it
now. That innocence on your eyes used to make me spellbound. Every single word of yours used to touch my heart. I loved
the way you looked at me. I loved everything about you. How could I utter a word when that angelic smile on your lips held
me back? I was afraid of losing you.
I know these may seem melodramatic. But believe me, they aren’t. Even today, when we met after a long long time I can
feel the existence of that link between us vibrating in full swing. Again, a new sense of achieving great suddenly cropped up
within me. Again, I am spending sleepless nights thinking about you. Even in my dreams I can see you with your beautiful
smile. As they say, “The test of true love is time”, I think… rather believe, that I have passed that test with distinction.
Didn’t I?
I know many things have changed since we last met. You have your own set of aspirations and dreams which you pursue
diligently. But for me you remain the same person as you were many years back.
Look at the irony of life, no matter of how much I love you, I can’t express my feelings. Neither this happened back then,
nor it’s going to happen ever. Could you see those tears in my eyes? They are forever going to stay.
Lots of love,
The person who loves you so much
